hrm... days of old

its funny...
I think i've run out of ammo... or at least... conviction.. to party..
Once upon a time.. i would go out... at the drop of a hat... even after finishing work at 1-2am.. (hehe crazy burswood homies)

Nowadays... getting me out of the house and into a club.. is almost a rare occurence and quite an effort..
I miss going out.. but i don't.. it's like. i've been there.. done that..
So then what???

I spent the weekend before last, on a saturday night.. playing cs for 3 or 4 hours..
I can't remember the last time i spent so long on a game.. without me realising..
I coud've made it to metros... but then... i didn't go...
And i don't quite know if its becoz if i go... the bf will want to go too.. and usually... when he goes..
some sort of crazy trouble brews.. not really of his own accord either..

I ended up having a cs nightmare that night... there was some jap chick in a balaclava that wanted to knife me and my family. I ended up shooting her point blank with my rifle. Saved my family and the house. Only to see a whole shiet load of terrorists inching towards the house. I then decided to go to the toilet. Coz i thought that it would take a long time to kill the lot of them, and i was busting. I then woke up.... touched my self.. just to check that i hadnt accidently pissed my self... (and no i didnt)

hrm..

the weekend just passed... i cbf going to val's bday (which sounded.. well.. trashy - been there done that)... so i didn't..
And on the sat night... i went out to the movies on a double date with a mate to watch harry potter.
I felt kinda pathetic after (coz i didnt really love the movie)... so convinced the gang to drink my sorrows over at the flying scotsman..

was it becoz i over did it in melb/syd... that i just dont feel the itch to club and party hard like i used to?? or maybe over did it by the time i'd reached 21... And although i can say.. u know.. i've been there... blind drunk... to the point where i cant recall a single thing past a particular point... and done that.. drunk a half bottle of vodka straight within the space of getting picked up to getting dropped off at the club... it is the not point. Its not about doing the same old thing week in week out. It about having fun. Is it possible that drinking is no longer high on my agenda?? Is it possible that i've found ways to have fun without getting drunk??? I think no.. getting drunk is always, and always be a blast.. (i think so.. ) but then again, yes, maybe i have found other ways to entertain myself.. or has settling in with stevo tamed me down??

Just to be sure.. i think i need a good night out.
Starts this fri night. After work drinks at rosie's...
pity about the weather tho